I am stressed about the application. School, as hard as it is, does not stress me out as much. But the application...that scares the hell out of me. I am working as hard as I can with very limited time (being a mom also means seeing family, and trying to cram it all into a short winter break is HARD!) But I can do this...with help!
The more time go by, the more I spend time with my kids rather then work on this application the more I am questioning if this is the right thing to do. A year plus after starting, I maybe should settle this question once and for all. I really, really am conflicted. Really. And stressed. And tired of crying all the time about it. I want to be happy about the decision to be in school, even with the stress of it. But I am not. Nor am I happy about quitting... that does not seem quite right either.
Any answers out there in the wide world....I will take all I can get.
Just not sure where to go next. I am up at 2.30am working on homework...I need to get some sleep soon, but I seem to work better this time of night. Sigh. I hate it, because then I am so tired. And I do have some time tomorrow.
Eh. I had more to say, but t tired to get it out. Some stuff I need to work out. Maybe tomorrow.
I got my cheap mystery shirt yesterday. Pushmepullme.com....I love it! A bear fishing. Very fun. I want more, unfortunately!
Working on letters-those are due tomorrow. The whole alphabet in photos. I am making them into coasters. I am close-ish, but not close enough. Here is the last one I had to photo-I had shot this one months ago, but it was a touch blurry, so I reshot it today. I like this better anyway. The backs are all cork, and the transfer process is a little smelly and crazy. But I like the overall look.
And here is where mom/student collide. Tomorrow I have to miss a the first two hours of class for parent teacher conference. Anna's is tomorrow. Then Thursday I will loose out on about 45 minutes of homework time to do to Ethan's. I mean, I can not miss that, and the kids come first. But it is hard to make that balance work.
So one project going well. Another on the back (tomorrow soon to be front) burner that is also doing well. No plan for another, but time. Three weeks of crazy, one weekend of fun (American Thanksgiving... I can not wait!) and then one last week. I am scared, but I am ready to be done. Actually, I am not. As stressful as it has been, I have a routine. I do not do well without my routine. Summer was awful. I do have a huge amount of work to do on my portfolio, scary the amount of work, and I hope I can get it all done.