Tuesday, January 5, 2010

And yet I seem to be!

I am stressed about the application. School, as hard as it is, does not stress me out as much. But the application...that scares the hell out of me. I am working as hard as I can with very limited time (being a mom also means seeing family, and trying to cram it all into a short winter break is HARD!) But I can do this...with help!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

And I am not sure I want to go on.

The more time go by, the more I spend time with my kids rather then work on this application the more I am questioning if this is the right thing to do. A year plus after starting, I maybe should settle this question once and for all. I really, really am conflicted. Really. And stressed. And tired of crying all the time about it. I want to be happy about the decision to be in school, even with the stress of it. But I am not. Nor am I happy about quitting... that does not seem quite right either.

Any answers out there in the wide world....I will take all I can get.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Behind on this too!

Winter break killed me.

So did Thanksgiving.

And visits.

And trips.

I now have 6 days with no one here and at home with no kids to get this application done. 20 projects. A letter of intent. A resume. Letters of recommendation.