Design*Sponge 2010 Scholarship Application

 2010 Calendar (paper, wood, ribbon, hand-bound)

 Accordion Book (cut paper, xerox transfer, hand-inked)

 Process book for installation work (felt, needlepoint, paper)

 Mock-up for sculpture proposal (paper)

 2009 Book Fair Poster (print)

Atlas of the Erica (Paper, watercolor sketches, hand-bound)

 Boundary (watercolor, brick, mirror & glue, paper)

 Farmer's Market Posters (Paper, ink)

 Mark-Making Device Process Book & Poster (Paper, watercolor, ink)

 Information Wheel (Cut paper)

 Love Card (Printed)

 Gift Tag (ink, paper, ribbon)

 Geography of Me (paper, ink, hand-sketched and bound)

 Photography

 Scarf (wool felt, silk thread)

 Budjaboo Design Identity Program (print)

 Purpose Psychology Identity Program (print)

 Coasters (photography, hand-etched glass)

 Multiple books (hand bound tunnel book, miniature books)

 Calendars (watercolor sketches, hand stiched)

And yet I seem to be!

I am stressed about the application. School, as hard as it is, does not stress me out as much. But the application...that scares the hell out of me. I am working as hard as I can with very limited time (being a mom also means seeing family, and trying to cram it all into a short winter break is HARD!) But I can do this...with help!

And I am not sure I want to go on.

The more time go by, the more I spend time with my kids rather then work on this application the more I am questioning if this is the right thing to do. A year plus after starting, I maybe should settle this question once and for all. I really, really am conflicted. Really. And stressed. And tired of crying all the time about it. I want to be happy about the decision to be in school, even with the stress of it. But I am not. Nor am I happy about quitting... that does not seem quite right either.

Any answers out there in the wide world....I will take all I can get.

Behind on this too!

Winter break killed me.

So did Thanksgiving.

And visits.

And trips.

I now have 6 days with no one here and at home with no kids to get this application done. 20 projects. A letter of intent. A resume. Letters of recommendation.